Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Living magically requires change

We all reach points in life where everything feels stagnant. Maybe there isn't anything particularly wrong or terrible, nothing that you can put your finger on exactly. Life just feels bland. Empty. Solved.

If nothing is tickling my soul, scaring me, opening my mind, challenging me or making me doubt myself, then I'm not happy. It's simple really. Stagnation and contentment rob life of its magic. When a person wishes to live magically and suck every drip of enlightenment and passion from the core of his or her being, change is necessary. 

My 23rd birthday was in September and it had a lot of expectations to live up to. My 20th birthday I was returning to the US from a summer spent in El Salvador where my entire perception of humanity was turned upside down. My 21st birthday, I was finding out I had a brain tumor and needed emergency surgery. By my 22nd birthday I had sold all of my belongings and was waking up on a Californian beach with nothing but a back pack, a sleeping bag, some apples, my best friend and dreams of my South American future.

"To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly."
-Henri Bergson

My 23rd birthday was nice on the surface: a cake with candles at work, a collaborative party with plenty of great people, a lovely dinner with the boyfriend and Skype conversations with family and friends abroad. Yet, I spent the two weeks following my birthday crying and feeling alone and unhappy. Why? I felt stagnant. It was a rather uneventful month surrounding my birthday. 

I had conquered the goal of finding stability and routine in a hectic and foreign world, which is what every scared human soul seeks... and it made me miserable. I started feeling very detached from my true self.

Then suddenly, it hit me. What I was missing on my birthday wasn't an adventurous road trip or a dramatic surgery. I was missing CHANGE, in general. Change comes in countless forms, some sparkly and beautiful, others prickly and ugly. Yet, change is what gives meaning to life and pushes us out of those ever so dangerous comfort zones we invent.


A few weeks after my birthday I moved to a new apartment in a new neighborhood of Buenos Aires (Almagro) and all my senses are awake again! Things feel new, inspiring and interesting. Oh, I also quit the job with which I had become so comfortable. When the time is right, the opportunity or necessity to change always presents itself, and invites us to take that step towards magic. We'll see where the new job and brilliant changes lead. Until then, enjoy some interesting quotes on change:

Only under extreme pressure can we change into that which it is in our most profound nature to become.
-Salman Rushdie

All great changes are preceded by chaos. 
-Deepak Chopra

Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights. 
-Pauline R. Kezer
The man who looks for security, even in the mind, is like a man who would chop off his limbs in order to have artificial ones which will give him no pain or trouble.  
-Henry Miller

Our only security is our ability to change.  
-John Lilly

Everything comes to pass, nothing comes to stay. 
-Matthew Flickstein

He who rejects change is the architect of decay.  The only human institution which rejects progress is the cemetery.  
-Harold Wilson


1 comment:

  1. precious. calming to feel reconnected to you in the sharing of this place in our lives today. maybe a whole continent apart but always together in spirit. thanks for refreshing my soul and vision :)